izit reli so muh to ask 4 bit of PEACE AND QUIET 4 ONCE? izit reli so much to ask of u 2 return my things when you borrow them, instead of waiting for the next day or the following day? izit reli so much 2 ask of u 2 b there when i need someone to tok to? izit? izit?

haizz.... see, i juz lost all my hype to study..... n dats a VERY BAD THING! I WANNA STUDY TO DO WELL 4 MY MID YR N U GUYS JUZ PISS ME OFF AT TIMES!!!

i hav feelings too u noe.... one word from me: understand. understand how ur frenz feel. understand y they need u by their side at times. understand y ur actions hurt them. understand....understand...pls?

i cant bear having the feeling dat im going away. it saddens me to leave my secondary school life behind. all my memories....will just be another memory. an unforgettable part of my life. a part....of.....me.....

i cant bear toking abt dis anymore...*SOB*.....

loneliness
depression
despair

anger
outrage
frustration

do these feelings mean anything to you? i feel dat its part and parcel of life dat u start adapting and tolerating unknowingly each and everyday.

frenz. i have friends. i think i do. friends who gossip abt u behind ur back. friends who gloat at ur misery. friends who dont realise e consequences dat their actions bring. friends who dont realise ur feelings deep inside till u tell them urself.

frenz. i have friends. i still think i do. friends who share ur problems and give u advice, gd or bad. friends who stick by u thru all ur misery and pain. friends who laugh wif u. friends who share ur joy when u achieve success.

how 'bout teachers? hmm....teachers who throw tantrums as and when they like. teachers who can change their minds the next sec. teachers who try to be friends wif u. teachers who become ur enemies. teachers who pick on u for who u are. teachers who dote on u for wat u r.

i'll be leaving my secondary school life by end of dis yr. no matter wat i want, things change. nothing can stay the same coz u want it to be. obstacles and problems come and go your way now and then. you juz hav to face it instead of hiding behind your other problems. coz dat would soon lead to other problems.

time is like a water flow dat nvr stops. u nvr realise its importance till u need it. its such a precious thing. remeber, nvr take time forgranted...

weekday activities

wat happened today....

1. woke up
2. went to school
3. had pe lesson
4. ran 2.4km
5. had physic lesson
6. went through the right and left hand rule
7. recess
8. ate rice at last stall
   
9. did introduction for english composition
10. had mother tongue oral
11. did november 2oo3 paper 1
12. had biology lesson
13. finished reproduction notes
14. had my personality profile report
15. im an 'advocate'
16. dunno whether thats true...
17. school finished
18. handed up add. maths graph hw, assign. 23
19. returned vendras storybk
20. had english oral
21. dunno whether it was okay....
22. msg my friend
23. went home
24. talk on the phone
25. typing this rubbish
26. still talking on the phone

thats all for now i think.... sux rite?

bleach 2nd opening. english version.

you've been hurt by unspeakable pain and sadness.
let's carry each other's inedible stains.
don't give up on living!

i held your hand.
will i end up losing them someday?
i want to protect you and your fading smile, so...

even if the resounding voice calling me should wither...
even if the mingling winds should tell me...
i will find you!

you've been hurt by unspeakable pain and sadness, but...
don't say things like "i can't laugh." or "i hate people."
there's a meaning in everything that happens in the unseen future,
so stay as you are for now, i know there'll come a time when you realize it.

you and me,two are spoken.

someday we'll understand each other.

my exams are coming!!! who likes having exams by the way? :P but i do know dats i like anime and episodes of the oc.... anime such as ayashino ceres, fushigi yugi's curious play, full metal alchemist and my most recent one, BLEACH!!! kurosaki ichigo is one cute guy... and i juz adore the new opening song from episode 35 till now. it sure has a ring to it. and maybe a bit of the ending song b4 dis new one. if anyone has news on how to download the new opening song for bleach, tell me k? the ocs arent dat bad as well. ive been following up on the recent episode which was last wk. the one abt ryan's bro and all... promise i wont spoil the ending for u guys aniwae... u wanna noe wat happened? hmm.... nah... better u to go see than me explaining it to you. hahaha... im a lamer, dats for sure....

a new year...

hi there again!! long time since i wrote in. again. from nov 2004 till now, april 2005. hahaha. crazy woman.

being in sec 4 sure is stressful, i noe. mid-year practical exam oreadi coming dis mon, oral exam dis thurs, proj dis sun, n so on so forth... no more happy day till end of the 'O's it seems. how to find $$$ for geog book, np white shirt, np instructor shirt, grad nite, and most importantly my pocket $$??? looks like im going to have to starve for quite a while coz need to save money for those stuff.

another prob again. my religious class camp is going to clash wif my FINAL NP CAMP!!!! i want to go for the latter coz the former camp is VERY BORING...ZzZzZzZzzz... but compulsory coz its part of my CA. haiz... reli very bizi. no time to relax one. one job finishes, another pops up. lilifes like dat i think. u reli would not noe wats going to happen.