boy was yesterday a fun day.... i went for my air-rifle shooting championship today!!! it was held at the CDANS shooting range which was one of the facilities with it being a country club. i still have the days events rewinding in my mind. hahaha.... fun all day. added on with the various experiences today.

my last practice shoot was thursday last week at hougang secondary. thats more than a week ago! imagine how i shot with the rifle today... not so good i guess. maybe if an unexpected event didnt occur last week, i could have gotten better results but still im not really complaining. bcoz the girls team turn to shoot was in the afternoon, we had to meet mr ben cheah at 2pm at bukit gombak mrt control station. he took us to CDANS in his car aft dat. i guess the guys wanted to meet us before we went coz we say them aft leaving off in the car. however, they could have juz met us there since the results for the guys team werent announced yet. while waiting for our turn, an officer came up and told us the guys team didnt make it so they now have to depend on us to win someting for the school. my other two frens told me dat they are depending on me to do this. dat suddenly seemed like a heavy burden on me.... we went to eat and drink downstairs first coz there was at least an hour b4 the shoot. the time came.

i put on my glove on my left hand and waited for instructions. ten minutes were first given as preparation time. no live firing is to be done. i checked my position and tried how i was gonna shoot. when dat was done, 45 minutes was given to shoot properly. i spent 15 minutes on my sighting shots and the rest of the time on my competition shots. quite bad if i say so. i finished my shots 4 min b4 the end. quite a long time i took. my frens told me they didnt do well either. my fren who had to use a left-handed air rifle told me she encountered a lot of difficulties along the way. for me, my eye went blur when i tried to aim. other than dat, the rifle was sensitive enough for my type. i was nearly sweating, standing there for soooo long. a few minutes later, the results were posted on the result board outside in front of the lift. all of us rushed out, waiting eagerly for the results of our efforts.

u wanna noe the results? wait till school reopens. [groan] i have to keep a secret for a whole month. hope theres nothing dat would tempt me to do so. haha....

my grandfather juz died dis morn. its such a sad event. i tot today would be a happy day coz i was going to hav a practice shoot at ntu. dat same morn at abt 6+ or so. my aunty called me, said they couldnt wake him up. i became scared and asked my brother wat to do. he told me to go for my shoot as per normal while he tot abt it. i still went to boon lay. took the bus to ntu. on the way there, my mum called me. told me where i was and i had to come home immediately. she herself had taken personal leave for 4 days. so i had to cancel my practice shoot on such short notice and took the same bus all the way back to boon lay bus interchange. considering dat the journey from boon lay to tampines would be long, i slept for a while. reached my granparents house at abt 11, still in my PT attire. i had to see my grandfather for the last time, before they bury him. suddenly, tears started flowing, knowing dat he did not had the chance to see me in his last few days and i only last saw him when he was alive during hari raya. dat is a very...long time. my mom cried coz she also knew she did not see him much this year. he was also the only one who would remind her of our religion and she was his listening ear more than his own children. i came home earlier than my parents tonight coz im still sick. i nearly want to faint. im tired. this is the first time ive been to a funeral where someone made an impact on me. but still, im going to school dis tues as usual since dis monday is a public holiday. juz hope no one talks abt dis anymore. i cant bear the tot of people whom i care for leaving me, even though i know in my heart dat they will at some point of time. its juz a reality dat everyone has to accept.

todays the last day of my exam. physics paper one. i reached home at nearly ten coz the paper finishes at 9am. listened to the radio then went to sleep for awhile. woke up at nearly 1pm. hahaha..... cannot wait for tomorrow...... im going out wif my frens for movie marathon, pool and maybe swimming. sound like fun, fun, fun! but then muz ask $$$ from my dad first. $$$ for the food. no need to worry abt the game coz the guys r paying for dat. hahaha.... got some sort of arrangement. but then, im oso dreading tomorrow, coz im going to boon lay for air rifle shooting. den in the early afternoon the im joing my frens. bcoz got shooting, then later at nite, billiard, my arms going to cramp like hell the next day. oh man.... nevermind, i have confidence in myslef for shooting tomorrow even though its juz a practice session. haha..... may the best gal get the better points!

wow... another fun day today... even though tomorrow isnt exactly a public holiday of some sort and examinations are still ongoing, my frens and i went to bowl at safra tamp. haha..... learn how to bowl now, got sum strikes by the way. [not trying to show off but it was quite fun though]. another thing was dat i learnt how to play pool. weehee... even if my own bro dont want to teach me, i can learn from my frens! hehehe.... aft dat, continue playing billiard again... left only to see the correct angles 2 make in dat game [time to put my physics into practice: the laws of reflection]. looks like i have to watch the video on dis game the next time, 2 see how 2 make gd angles and maybe some tips from K, KK or JW? then i will have learnt 2 new things in one day. despite having exams dis week. hehehe...

haha.... its time 4 my fren to get teased as MAYBE my ohter fren likes her and vice versa. wow... first time someone's the object of teasing ohter than me. i've suffered bullshit for yrs. no one has ever cared. i noe how u guys would feel. dont say dat i dont understand. coz i undretsand it more than u noe.

[not all cases are like the ones below, k?]

from experience, denial seems to be the first step to liking someone, i think. people start pairing u up wif other people u noe or people dat u didnt even noe exists. [its dumb, i noe] [reli big busybodies rite?]. aft it all dies dwon, and u dont speak to dat person for a certain period of time, u start to notice the little things around them. its like, u seem to be bumping into each other more than often. bit by bit, they seem to be pretty nice people, different form wat u tot they were aft all.

watever u wanna noe 2 cope wif dis kind of nonsense or watever, u can ask me. cant reli consider myself as a 'proffessional' adviser or counsellor 4 sure. but then when u cant find anyone to turn to or everyone u noe seems to turn against u, i can b ur listening ear wif no complaints at all. since im ur fren, i shld be there thru ur sadness like a fren shld be. u dont reli need to listen to my problems coz i wouldnt wanna tok abt them as freely as i actually want to. guess dats how people like me cope wif everyday life....

i prefer to keep my problems to myslef. but then like all things, putting/ adding more pressure on it will juz make it explode at 1 point of time. so, its no use if u wanna noe coz i wont tell you. unless u r someone whom i can trust reli fully....

i had such a fun day today!!! hmm... even though my legs are tired coz full of lactic acid [haha!] and the exams today seemed okay, i went shopping wif my frens [KK, K, W, JW, F and MZ, L, HT, J]. not to mention playing billiard from K. i think i didnt even tell my mom i went to play billiard at safra tamp. of all the 9+ yrs i lived here, dat was the first time i went into safra. funny.... my right arm still aches from holding dat gue. K was a gd teacher. the rest is up to me to figure out on the angles. next time, he will teach us how to play pool!!!